The novel is fictional. I’m pretty sure it was written by a male. It’s roughly around 120-170 pages. It may have been released during the late 80-90s. From what I remember the background cover art was light blue and on the foreground, a face of a boy (pre-teens-young teenager) looking away to the left into the distance. There is also a bird (possibly a robin?) superimposed above him. The novel starts with a boy at a swim meet however I’m not sure if he wins or loses. After this, he is driving home with his mom and sister and they get into a fatal car accident (I’m not sure what becomes of the mother, but I do remember the sister having dialogue later in the book) which leaves the boy confined to a bed stuck in his thoughts for the most part. He is dealing with his changing body, his shifting views of sexuality and the death of his father during the Vietnam War (remembering scattered memories, the fact he doesn’t have father during all the puberty shift). I wish I could remember more but from what I do, it’s a fairly simple novel about a boy essentially dealing with existential burden from his growing body and lack of a fatherly figure.